It has to be one of the nastiest drinks ever. Why is it so thick? And vile tasting?

It gives such bad nausea too.

Anyway… it was the hour long wait and holding down the urge to vomit that had me most tense during the test. No way do I want to repeat it.

Anyway… by some miracle I passed, but I don’t feel diabetic if that even makes sense. However, the consultant seems to think from reading between the lines it is inevitable that I will get it again.

I get more scans this pregnancy again because kiddo was in the 99th percentile. Honestly had no idea she was a 99er. I just thought meh its a big baby, nope she was a biiiiiig baby. She was already measuring big at this stage though which this one isn’t so I may be able to hold the ‘betes at bay a little longer with any luck.

Happy valentines day everyone.

So now over half way. I know what it is. We are keeping it a secret which is challenging enough. I have to keep catching myself in conversations.

It’s been a bit manic slowly. Found out we are moving within the next month so its all sanity is lost all brain waves are diminished and here we go. So we are starting to pack… yay?

I’m not looking forward to the glucose tolerance test. I don’t trust them after last time. Some how I passed them all until it was late in the game.

I’ve had some wild dreams. It’s lead to a lot of reflection. Not always a positive trip down memory lane. Combine that with starting a new course of therapy and I feel like my brain is slowly fading to grey in terms of how much information I am able to retain.

On the upside, we got a changing table for a tenner, can’t remember if I mentioned that before? We’ve painted it fresh because it badly needed it. I can’t wait to start setting up for the baby though.

Well, the baby kicks…

Loves salty foods too. It’s become an obsession. It dances like a little lunatic when I eat something salty which is funny.

I am finding this vastly different from my last pregnancy.

Yes there is more exhaustion. I could nap for a sport.

However emotionally it is very different. I think being in a completely different environment and place has a massive effect. As well as the fact I don’t have the same people around me this time causing such intense stress and anxiety. It’s been nice to not have to manage toxic influences in my life making things harder than they need to be.

I honestly feel so much safer and more supported. It has made the world of difference. No other news. Scan coming soon after writing this so I will update that in the next post.

Sometimes it’s important to just post a couple of lines.

Primarily this is a massive shout of appreciation to my partner for being so amazing.

P.S. I love you more.

Is it me, or are they always this wild? Like literally.

I have had some of the wildest dreams lately and the most terrifying nightmares.

To be fair most of my nightmares are about my childhood, teen years, growing up kind of thing. But also as an adult dealing with the removal of toxic influences. Like it all circles through the brain and gets processed.

But it’s not just dealing with real memories or things that are problematic the dreams can be utterly random. The cravings after some of them are bizarre.

Still, I think I have eaten way too much carbonara lately as cravings go.

Oh and the middle of the night leg cramps and trips to pee. Torture of the weirdest variety.

So yeah, any one else get absolutely bizarro pregnancy dreams?